The Square Root of Negative One

Today's thought is a song. Just wrote it over the last couple days, and it's the first one I've done in quite a few weeks that's intended to be sung rather than rapped. To clarify the title of the song, the square root of negative one is "I" for imaginary number. And no, I'm not that clever, it's the title of a poem by E.E. Cummings I just stole. I'm a lyricist, not a poet. Anyway:

I'd like to find myself

My own somebody else

But it's just me

Oh yeah I stroll alone

Have yet to make a home

Just a splash on the scene

There's been some near misses that I've been quite caught up in

More times than I can identify

Overcompensate for my intense fear of rejection

My sabotage is justified, at least in my mind

Chorus:

Don't tell me I'm stuck like this

I swear there's gotta be a better way

Don't tell me that I'm better off on my own

I won't listen if that's all you have to say

Why am I insecure?

I'm just so damn unsure

And really can you blame me

Withhold my best effort

'Cause nothing ever works

It all becomes the same thing

Make that same mistake and get my foolish hopes up

More times than I can identify

Prove to myself too much is never enough

My sabotage is justified, at least in my mind

(chorus)

I'm a catastrophe

Caught in calamity

Looking for a sense of calm

All my shenanigans

I'm no huge fan of them

It's my right to be so wrong

I've heard you'll never find it if you're out to do so

More times than I can identify

I'm not the person any one of you knows

My sabotage is justified, at least in my mind

(Chorus x2)